Yippee! I got signed off from skin cancer care today after 2 years of hospital appointments. I had the middle one (squamous) which can occasionally spread but was more freaked by having to go to hospital.
So where was my success.
I attended all appointments on my own and stuck out all the waiting rooms and at the end was confident enough to go a little bit early.
I wanted to get through the removal without telling them my condition but I caved and they were really understanding about it. They took it on themselves to entertain me and kept me engaged throughout. Bless her, the doctor was so good that although at that stage was just doing a rather large biopsy she managed to get all of the cancer with a safe enough margin around it that I didn't need anything else removed.
I got through a neck and thyroid ultrasound although I tense up so rigid my fingers needed to be prised off of the bedding and I attended all further appointments on the excised area.
For all my good intentions before I go I know I am supposed to relax and accept whatever comes but as soon as I get in there it still becomes a fight against panic. Although I didn't achieve it with style it is good to know I can get through an emergency without leaning on anyone else.
Today means another thing off the list.
Simon.