I've been more anxious recently that the stress I'm going through is going to cause me to die.

I've been feeling rotten physically. Can't even explain it. Like my whole body is lead weight. I keep checking my pulse but it always seems to be normal. It's just this stress don't feel good. I have visions of seeing TV episodes of various kinds, showing people getting stressed out then suddenly having a heart attack.

So I'm convinced that's going to happen to. I have these impending doom feelings where the feelings are so strong that "today is the day something bad will happen".

I hate it when I get in these endless loops but I can't shake it. Not when I'm feeling rotten.