Re: Suicidal panic / Suicidal OCD
I struggled with unwanted suicidal ideation for decades; still do, at times of stress. I hear voices telling me that the only decent and right thing for me to do is to kill myself.
What really helped me was when I read somewhere that these intrusive thoughts had nothing to do with wanting to kill myself, and that they were just a reaction to feeling overloaded.
Nowadays, when they hit I try to take a mental step back, work out what I need to make myself feel better and they tend to fade on their own.
Wishing you all the luck in the world.
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