I got a letter through saying I need a routine ECG and full bloodwork because the meds I'm on can apparently cause some problems.

I'm fine with having the bloodwork, but the ECG scares the life out of me. I know the moment they put the pads on me I'll go into a panic attack.

This happened to me before when I had my first ECG some 18 years ago. The lady doing the test confused my panic attack and thought I was confused why my heartrate was high. I heard her say they were going to keep me in so I legged it.

I have had an ECG when I've went to A&E for panic attacks, and they seemed ok then. Maybe because I needed that instant reassurance to stop the panic. Heart related HA is one of the controlling fears of my life.

My brain is saying what if my white blood cells are high? What if I have high cholesterol? What if they find a heart problem?

I can skip the test, I did last year, but I actually want to have it done. Knowing there's a problem they can address is the wiser thing to do.