Hi everyone,
::sigh::
I have had anxiety for a long time now but depression has recently started to impact my life. I was depressed when I was a young teenager but i learned how to put those feelings on the backburner and live my life. I will be 23 now in like a week and lately depression is getting the best of me. It started a couple months ago when I started on cymbalta.. I was lying in bed one night having a terrible fulll blown panic attack, I swore that I was going to die. After that, I have had these questions flying through my head.. questions that I have thought about before from a completely different perspective. What happens when you die? Why are we alive? What is the point of all this? I feel like I need faith and I need people to tell me, or remind me of the point of living. It's a scary thought to not be able to answer those questions. There is no one around for me to talk to, no one takes me seriously because everything to them just boils down to "oh its just your anxiety" this may or may not be true but it is not what I need to hear. I need reassurance. I feel like all these thoughts are poison eating away at my mind and soul. What scares me the most is that I used to have the answers and I was so sure of them, I was always the one there reassuring people and really meaning it, now I am lost. If anyone has any reassuring words it would be greatly appreciated. Thanks for listening.