Hey everyone, currently going through the hardest phase of my ha possible, panic attacks everyday, unable to function, unable to look after my family, crying all day, unable to work.
It all started a month ago when I got some rectal discomfort and one time whiping gave me bright blood little streaks, went to the doctor who had a feel and told me I had huge internal hemorrhoids, started the medication and the pain subsided, the problem is during that time I googled, and went down the rabbit hole, I’m experiencing constipation, abdominal pain and an immense pressure on my bottom which makes me feel like I have to have a bowel movement but nothing comes out, what’s worrying me most is this immense pressure and some yellow mucus when wiping after nr 2, meanwhile I went to 2 doctors who won’t refer me to a colonoscopy, one of them asked for a abdominal and pelvic ultrasound and the other just wanted me to take meds for my constipation, meanwhile I can’t get on with my life, I feel like I need this colonoscopy because by now I’m 100% convinced I’ve got the c word, I’m 27 year old female and my great-grandmother passed from it at 70 yo, she had very questionable health habits, she ate tremendous amounts of fat and red meat, smoked and drank alcohol a lot, so I’m not sure if she got it from bad habits or genetic causes, I’m panicking so bad right now, can’t even look at my stools or toilet paper anymore as I’m scared I’ll see confirmation of something.