My health anxiety has reared its ugly head again, this time I’m back to breast cancer fear. I always have this fear at the back of my head and never ever check my breast. Then every so often I’ll be gripped by fear and beat myself up because I don’t check them. I just cant bring myself to do it.
About 10 years ago and used to check them multiple times a day, even when on holiday to Disneyland, I would go to the toilet to check them. I ended up making my breasts extremely sore. So then I stopped checking completely.
I’m convinced I’ll find something, at this point in my life I cannot deal with anymore bad things. I have been through so much trauma and have two children. One has a heart condition which required open heart surgery last year and my partner has had a health scare where I thought he was dying infront of me a few months ago.
I feel very stressed and this is adding to the stress, I can’t deal with anymore but I know that not checking won’t help either.
Feel sick at the thought of even touching my breasts.
Does anyone else not check?