lilac kitten
29-03-04, 21:35
between a panic attack and being really unwell. As most of you know I've had one thing after another this year, then last weeks thing was keeping thinking I was going to be sick all the time with a mucousy lump in my throat. But as usual I put everything down to panic. I even found getting my son to and from school a major challenge.
To cut a long story short on Friday I had a really bad day and kept telling myself all this dizzyness, lightheadedness nausia, was all panic. Then in the afternoon I had to phone for my mother in law to get my son from school. I fell a fool, until I threw up that is. We ended up having to phone the doctor as both myself and my baby son were really sick and I ached from head to foot and felt rotten.
Then feeling a little better and a little braver on Sunday I ventured to Tesco, and really thought I was going to faint - was this panic? Well I went back today and I was fine and chirpy.
I've had sinusitis (still have and am on antibiotics) and the doctor diagnosed both my son and myself with gastric flu. The sinus infection would explain the dizziness. But how on earth do you tell the difference between being genuinely unwell and panic - all the symptoms seem so similar.
I decided to take a few days off work and chill out. The ironing can wait as well.
My doctor says I do need the citalopram and must start them at easter when I'm not working and hopefully virus free, so we can see any really bad side effects if any.
I've always worried about being sick in public or fainting when driving, but I am determined to get through all this as I've said before. I don't know if others of you feel the same but the outside world is so hostile and that makes me worry about the above. My son was sick once in Tesco and rather than being helpful or turning the other cheek, people felt the need to critisise that I'd bought him out in the first place, only the staff in the shop offered to help me. And the same happened to me once at a rock concert. I drove all the way there and felt rotten and ran into the bushes and threw up. We went to the medical tent and everyone assumed I'd been drinking or ate a funny burger. But I hadn't, and those around me kept saying 'you better not be sick in front of me'. I know its not nice but then you become paranoid everyone is the same and worry about it.
Sorry to be such a winge, I'm hoping my feelings and thoughts may be understood by people here who maybe know of how to cope better. I have a large handbag so I can go everywhere with a plastic bag and a bottle of water and some pepto bismol. And I think as a parent you feel you have to carry on regardless when all you want to do is shut the door and go to bed so every ailment you say is nothing.
I've written War and Peace here - thats if anyone is still reading this!!
Better go, I think an early night in order - in fact a couple may be of need right now.
Take care everybody,
Ruth
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To cut a long story short on Friday I had a really bad day and kept telling myself all this dizzyness, lightheadedness nausia, was all panic. Then in the afternoon I had to phone for my mother in law to get my son from school. I fell a fool, until I threw up that is. We ended up having to phone the doctor as both myself and my baby son were really sick and I ached from head to foot and felt rotten.
Then feeling a little better and a little braver on Sunday I ventured to Tesco, and really thought I was going to faint - was this panic? Well I went back today and I was fine and chirpy.
I've had sinusitis (still have and am on antibiotics) and the doctor diagnosed both my son and myself with gastric flu. The sinus infection would explain the dizziness. But how on earth do you tell the difference between being genuinely unwell and panic - all the symptoms seem so similar.
I decided to take a few days off work and chill out. The ironing can wait as well.
My doctor says I do need the citalopram and must start them at easter when I'm not working and hopefully virus free, so we can see any really bad side effects if any.
I've always worried about being sick in public or fainting when driving, but I am determined to get through all this as I've said before. I don't know if others of you feel the same but the outside world is so hostile and that makes me worry about the above. My son was sick once in Tesco and rather than being helpful or turning the other cheek, people felt the need to critisise that I'd bought him out in the first place, only the staff in the shop offered to help me. And the same happened to me once at a rock concert. I drove all the way there and felt rotten and ran into the bushes and threw up. We went to the medical tent and everyone assumed I'd been drinking or ate a funny burger. But I hadn't, and those around me kept saying 'you better not be sick in front of me'. I know its not nice but then you become paranoid everyone is the same and worry about it.
Sorry to be such a winge, I'm hoping my feelings and thoughts may be understood by people here who maybe know of how to cope better. I have a large handbag so I can go everywhere with a plastic bag and a bottle of water and some pepto bismol. And I think as a parent you feel you have to carry on regardless when all you want to do is shut the door and go to bed so every ailment you say is nothing.
I've written War and Peace here - thats if anyone is still reading this!!
Better go, I think an early night in order - in fact a couple may be of need right now.
Take care everybody,
Ruth
x