Tracy68
05-10-05, 15:16
Hi
I haven't been on this site for ages. Well since May, and as some of you know I got married that month. Wellllllllll i'm unhappy.
Hope you're all sitting comfortably, this could be a long post.
I'm not sure where to start to be honest. When I got married John promised me everything would be ok and i believed him. Without going over old ground.... John's suffers with social phobias and agrophobia.
But for the last two months things haven't been great. There's hardly any communication anymore and it's totally non existent between him and my two girls which they've picked up on. I have tried talking to him about this but as usual i'm nagging and reading more into it.
He has gone to work this week for the first time since he came back (which was end of april this year). So as you can imagine the money side of things hasn't been good. It's only my wage we survive on (well that and working tax) and again when i've approached him about working before he manages to turn it around to be my fault, that i'm spending too much etc etc. I can't even afford to have my hair cut (six months ago was last time). I just feel so down in the dumps and the slightest thing has me in tears. All my old syptoms are coming back and I know if I go to the doctors he'll just prescribe happy pills and I don't really want to go there. The ectopic beats and pains in my arms are the worst at the moment.
I guess by writing things down it might make me feel a bit better. Really there's alot more to it all but I think i'd still be typing away at midnight lol.
Don't get me wrong I love the guy to bits but just feel that I can't carry on much longer.
Sorry to have gone on.
Tracy
xxxx
I haven't been on this site for ages. Well since May, and as some of you know I got married that month. Wellllllllll i'm unhappy.
Hope you're all sitting comfortably, this could be a long post.
I'm not sure where to start to be honest. When I got married John promised me everything would be ok and i believed him. Without going over old ground.... John's suffers with social phobias and agrophobia.
But for the last two months things haven't been great. There's hardly any communication anymore and it's totally non existent between him and my two girls which they've picked up on. I have tried talking to him about this but as usual i'm nagging and reading more into it.
He has gone to work this week for the first time since he came back (which was end of april this year). So as you can imagine the money side of things hasn't been good. It's only my wage we survive on (well that and working tax) and again when i've approached him about working before he manages to turn it around to be my fault, that i'm spending too much etc etc. I can't even afford to have my hair cut (six months ago was last time). I just feel so down in the dumps and the slightest thing has me in tears. All my old syptoms are coming back and I know if I go to the doctors he'll just prescribe happy pills and I don't really want to go there. The ectopic beats and pains in my arms are the worst at the moment.
I guess by writing things down it might make me feel a bit better. Really there's alot more to it all but I think i'd still be typing away at midnight lol.
Don't get me wrong I love the guy to bits but just feel that I can't carry on much longer.
Sorry to have gone on.
Tracy
xxxx