MandySlade
24-07-09, 02:39
I've been in CBT for 4 weeks now. I've gotten a little better about disputing my health worries and fears. However, my "big phobia" is going crazy or having something wrong with my brain. Well, here's what happened today:
Every morning I turn the AC up to 75. I don't touch it again till I go to bed at night. This morning was no different... accept that 2 hours later I noticed it had been set back down to 71 and was climbing back down from 75. Meaning, at some point I turned the AC back down and have no memory of doing so. Not to mention that I wasnt hot or anything and I NEVER do this.
So, unable to shake my extreme worry that this means something is seriously wrong with my mind... I email my therapist telling him about it. He sends me back this:
"Remember, if you are going crazy you are going crazy, it might not be such a bad state. You can not control the future and the only evidence you have is you do not remember turning the AC down, Screw it, it is what it is!"
That's all well and good accept that I'm freaking TERRIFIED of going crazy. So if I'm having a really hard time saying to myself "ok, so maybe you ARE losing your mind.. oh well." If I could say that I wouldn't have the phobia in the first place. :( I don't know what to do. I've been obsessing about it the entire day. I'm so scared and worried.
Every morning I turn the AC up to 75. I don't touch it again till I go to bed at night. This morning was no different... accept that 2 hours later I noticed it had been set back down to 71 and was climbing back down from 75. Meaning, at some point I turned the AC back down and have no memory of doing so. Not to mention that I wasnt hot or anything and I NEVER do this.
So, unable to shake my extreme worry that this means something is seriously wrong with my mind... I email my therapist telling him about it. He sends me back this:
"Remember, if you are going crazy you are going crazy, it might not be such a bad state. You can not control the future and the only evidence you have is you do not remember turning the AC down, Screw it, it is what it is!"
That's all well and good accept that I'm freaking TERRIFIED of going crazy. So if I'm having a really hard time saying to myself "ok, so maybe you ARE losing your mind.. oh well." If I could say that I wouldn't have the phobia in the first place. :( I don't know what to do. I've been obsessing about it the entire day. I'm so scared and worried.