Nechtan
18-07-08, 21:31
Hi all,
I've been lurking for a few weeks now and finally decided to start posting. Previous visits were for some reassurances that I mostly found so from that point of view it's been really worthwhile. Of most use I found the success stories really useful as they did help lift the spirits and I'm sure alot of people know sometimes you just think things are not going to get any better- these prove they can get better.
A quick bit about myself. I'm 36 and have been unemployed for 3 years since being made redundant. I am married and the father of 3 young children. I was at the birth of the first two children but earlier this year could not make it to the birth of my third child despite the hospital being only 15 minutes drive away. That was a very testing time as my wife was rushed into hospital one morning and my worries about her and the baby's health were comforted by the news they were OK I was also told they would not be home until after the birth.
Anyway about my problem. I had one panic attack just over 3 years ago before leaving work and then a massive one after that. Slowly I became a prisoner in the home where I am today. My wife ended up in hospital for 5 weeks and I never visited once.
Aside from the panic attacks I've developed general anxiety in which I feel on the verge of a panic attack constantly. This led to me even having trouble with people in the house- something that still happens. Eventually I had to tell family why I didn't want them visiting.
It's had all sorts of problems and my main concern is that not only am I suffering but my wife and kids are too. I'm no longer a breadwinner and can't even take the kids anywhere. My wife shoulders all the burden which is hard for me to accept- though I do appreciate it.
I'm hopeful things will change. There have been times when they have and it has all been my own doing. All help I have sought has been useless to be honest and I've often felt people can't wait to rid themselves of me by referring me elsewhere. The system as I have found it sucks.
I've been lurking for a few weeks now and finally decided to start posting. Previous visits were for some reassurances that I mostly found so from that point of view it's been really worthwhile. Of most use I found the success stories really useful as they did help lift the spirits and I'm sure alot of people know sometimes you just think things are not going to get any better- these prove they can get better.
A quick bit about myself. I'm 36 and have been unemployed for 3 years since being made redundant. I am married and the father of 3 young children. I was at the birth of the first two children but earlier this year could not make it to the birth of my third child despite the hospital being only 15 minutes drive away. That was a very testing time as my wife was rushed into hospital one morning and my worries about her and the baby's health were comforted by the news they were OK I was also told they would not be home until after the birth.
Anyway about my problem. I had one panic attack just over 3 years ago before leaving work and then a massive one after that. Slowly I became a prisoner in the home where I am today. My wife ended up in hospital for 5 weeks and I never visited once.
Aside from the panic attacks I've developed general anxiety in which I feel on the verge of a panic attack constantly. This led to me even having trouble with people in the house- something that still happens. Eventually I had to tell family why I didn't want them visiting.
It's had all sorts of problems and my main concern is that not only am I suffering but my wife and kids are too. I'm no longer a breadwinner and can't even take the kids anywhere. My wife shoulders all the burden which is hard for me to accept- though I do appreciate it.
I'm hopeful things will change. There have been times when they have and it has all been my own doing. All help I have sought has been useless to be honest and I've often felt people can't wait to rid themselves of me by referring me elsewhere. The system as I have found it sucks.