shylez
28-04-08, 18:57
hi. i am a 33 year old lesbian with anxiety, ocd and an alcahol adiction.
I hope people won't judge me anymore for that.
1, The reason for me being a lesbian is because I clam up with male contact due to my past, also being a lesbian don't make me a sexual devient, if any thing I am represed when it come's to sex but I can't help but long for the soft, gentle embrace that for me only feel's safe with a woman.
2, I am an alcoholic besause it is the only way I have left for copeing with anxiety and deppresion. this way I can pretend to be normal is if nothing is bothering me and I don't have a care in the world. I need to be strong for my family who are also falling apart so they don't need my problem's to deal with too.
I would like to share some poem's with you all if I may.
TRAPED IN TIME.
No room to breath,
The wall's are closeing in.
Too many gorilla's,
Tearing at my skin.
Take your once of flesh,
Spit me out.
You wonder why,
There's no voice to shout.
Traped in time,
No justice in sight.
Who do I trust?
I'm too week to fight.
FAMILY TIE'S.
Too many question's,
Not enough answer's.
Drowning in a gene pool,
Where everyone whisper's.
Don't need that look,
To tell me I'm nut's,
Aready convinced,
Been told it enough.
How can I be fixed?
The whole tree's falling apart.
We seem to have tragedy,
Down to an art.
Trying to make a u-turn,
To break this chain.
I can see groundhog day.
We're in trouble again.
IN A NUT SHELL.
So you wan't to know a bit about me,
For your little sob story.
Then here's my history,
With no stabilaty.
Was born in West Germany,
Dad was in the army,
To fight for queen and country.
Mum has a legacy,
Impailed it in me,
Run's in the family,
Must be hareditory.
Gang molested by the age of three,
Repeatedly molested again at sixteen,
Two evil step mother's inbetween.
Malnurished by the first,
The second was worse,
Punishing with her fist,
But wait there's a twist,
Because dad chose her, over his own kid's.
The moral of the story is,
It's not all peach's and cream.
Please people,
Just let me scream.
I hope I have'nt offended anyone. If I have I'm sorry.
from Shylez.
I hope people won't judge me anymore for that.
1, The reason for me being a lesbian is because I clam up with male contact due to my past, also being a lesbian don't make me a sexual devient, if any thing I am represed when it come's to sex but I can't help but long for the soft, gentle embrace that for me only feel's safe with a woman.
2, I am an alcoholic besause it is the only way I have left for copeing with anxiety and deppresion. this way I can pretend to be normal is if nothing is bothering me and I don't have a care in the world. I need to be strong for my family who are also falling apart so they don't need my problem's to deal with too.
I would like to share some poem's with you all if I may.
TRAPED IN TIME.
No room to breath,
The wall's are closeing in.
Too many gorilla's,
Tearing at my skin.
Take your once of flesh,
Spit me out.
You wonder why,
There's no voice to shout.
Traped in time,
No justice in sight.
Who do I trust?
I'm too week to fight.
FAMILY TIE'S.
Too many question's,
Not enough answer's.
Drowning in a gene pool,
Where everyone whisper's.
Don't need that look,
To tell me I'm nut's,
Aready convinced,
Been told it enough.
How can I be fixed?
The whole tree's falling apart.
We seem to have tragedy,
Down to an art.
Trying to make a u-turn,
To break this chain.
I can see groundhog day.
We're in trouble again.
IN A NUT SHELL.
So you wan't to know a bit about me,
For your little sob story.
Then here's my history,
With no stabilaty.
Was born in West Germany,
Dad was in the army,
To fight for queen and country.
Mum has a legacy,
Impailed it in me,
Run's in the family,
Must be hareditory.
Gang molested by the age of three,
Repeatedly molested again at sixteen,
Two evil step mother's inbetween.
Malnurished by the first,
The second was worse,
Punishing with her fist,
But wait there's a twist,
Because dad chose her, over his own kid's.
The moral of the story is,
It's not all peach's and cream.
Please people,
Just let me scream.
I hope I have'nt offended anyone. If I have I'm sorry.
from Shylez.