confusedrob
16-10-07, 16:42
Hi,
I posted this in the comitment thread earlier, but thought i'd start it as a new topic too.
My wife and i have just split up after 7 years together, married for 6.
As much as i try to reason about why we split up up i know in my heart that it was all down to my anxiety. I just couldn't tell which were my real feelings and what was the anxiety. I loved her to bits but when my anxiety played up it made me feel trapped, that i didnt want to be married and i'd rather be single. At the time these feelings felt so real and i would moan to her that i wasn't happy etc. Now i just don't know what was real and what wasn't. All i know is now i feel just as bad about not being with her. It's like the anxiety always wants the opposite of what i'm doing.
We split up about 5 weeks ago, and i just found out last week that what spurred her to leave was an ex boyfriend who got in touch through facebook, who she is now seeing. This has given me really bad anxiety attacks, i havent slept for 4 nights and have really bad physical symptoms all the time. Images of them together keep popping up in my head and i feel so bad that my anxiety ruins everything. I think she had just had enough of being with someone who suffers from anxiety and wanted a normal relationship. I had a really bad episode of anxiety attacks at the start of our relationship and she admits it shocked her and she never really got over it, but hoped she would eventually (it was to do with obsessive thoughts of her with ex boyfriends, which i obsessively questioned her about and just couldn't get out of my head)
I also had the same problem with my last partner, and she left me too!
I just don't feel like carrying on anymore, i can't cope with having this disorder anymore. I know i would never actually contemplate suicide, but sometimes i just don't see the point in this kind of life. I could have been so happy but the anxiety ruins everything.
Sorry, i know this is kind of depressing for a first post, but i feel so low at the moment.
I posted this in the comitment thread earlier, but thought i'd start it as a new topic too.
My wife and i have just split up after 7 years together, married for 6.
As much as i try to reason about why we split up up i know in my heart that it was all down to my anxiety. I just couldn't tell which were my real feelings and what was the anxiety. I loved her to bits but when my anxiety played up it made me feel trapped, that i didnt want to be married and i'd rather be single. At the time these feelings felt so real and i would moan to her that i wasn't happy etc. Now i just don't know what was real and what wasn't. All i know is now i feel just as bad about not being with her. It's like the anxiety always wants the opposite of what i'm doing.
We split up about 5 weeks ago, and i just found out last week that what spurred her to leave was an ex boyfriend who got in touch through facebook, who she is now seeing. This has given me really bad anxiety attacks, i havent slept for 4 nights and have really bad physical symptoms all the time. Images of them together keep popping up in my head and i feel so bad that my anxiety ruins everything. I think she had just had enough of being with someone who suffers from anxiety and wanted a normal relationship. I had a really bad episode of anxiety attacks at the start of our relationship and she admits it shocked her and she never really got over it, but hoped she would eventually (it was to do with obsessive thoughts of her with ex boyfriends, which i obsessively questioned her about and just couldn't get out of my head)
I also had the same problem with my last partner, and she left me too!
I just don't feel like carrying on anymore, i can't cope with having this disorder anymore. I know i would never actually contemplate suicide, but sometimes i just don't see the point in this kind of life. I could have been so happy but the anxiety ruins everything.
Sorry, i know this is kind of depressing for a first post, but i feel so low at the moment.