LouiseAndy
17-04-20, 23:04
So, I'm mainly writing this as a rant. I'm a carer, during the week a group of men (middle age) started playing a game of football in the green outside of my work. It's private grounds but we normally let members of the public use it but not during these times.
My manger asked me to go out and speak to them, you know ask then to move on. Which resulted in two grown men spiting in my face and others shouting horrible abuse at me. It was frighting but I did my best to stand my ground, after all the safest of the people I look after is what most important. One of my co workers saw and came out to help. We called the police but they said they had more serious issues to deal with
I've been at home self isolated since that, I'm returning to work Sunday but my anixety feels so high. My heart is pounding everyday. To the point I can't stand up without feeling like I'm going to faint. I had heart tests done before Christmas that all came back fine, so in the back of my head I know it's nothing but it's distressing. I just feel awful, I keep getting stress headaches.
We're so, so lucky to not have a case in our home yet. Yet talking through windows to the people I care for, seeing the fear in their eyes and having some of them cry to me saying they just want a hug. Oh my mind can't take much more, especially when I go home and see people not taking it seriously. When my own friends are having parties or such and tell me to call up after work. When I try expressing my worries to then they just laugh and say I'm always worrying/they bring my health anixety which isn't making me think clearly. It really feels like I'm constantly being out down.
Everyday I wake up in a panic, my heart racing, struggling to breath, feeling numb. I feel so dizzy and pounding heart just writing this.
My manger asked me to go out and speak to them, you know ask then to move on. Which resulted in two grown men spiting in my face and others shouting horrible abuse at me. It was frighting but I did my best to stand my ground, after all the safest of the people I look after is what most important. One of my co workers saw and came out to help. We called the police but they said they had more serious issues to deal with
I've been at home self isolated since that, I'm returning to work Sunday but my anixety feels so high. My heart is pounding everyday. To the point I can't stand up without feeling like I'm going to faint. I had heart tests done before Christmas that all came back fine, so in the back of my head I know it's nothing but it's distressing. I just feel awful, I keep getting stress headaches.
We're so, so lucky to not have a case in our home yet. Yet talking through windows to the people I care for, seeing the fear in their eyes and having some of them cry to me saying they just want a hug. Oh my mind can't take much more, especially when I go home and see people not taking it seriously. When my own friends are having parties or such and tell me to call up after work. When I try expressing my worries to then they just laugh and say I'm always worrying/they bring my health anixety which isn't making me think clearly. It really feels like I'm constantly being out down.
Everyday I wake up in a panic, my heart racing, struggling to breath, feeling numb. I feel so dizzy and pounding heart just writing this.