xlauracx
13-12-04, 19:46
Hello everyone, hope your doin alrite! I've been off school today, was sick when i woke up! But I'm fine now. Anyways, Its my school dance next monday night. Possibly my last one, unless i stay on at school another year if the universities don't want me! But I don't know if I should go or not. I have a ticket and an outfit so ya'd think i'd decided to go eh? My mum told me to get them so id have the option.
See I have been in less than half of my classes since September, so one of the reasons I'm not sure if i should go is Do i really deserve to? Mostly cos of something a girl said to one of my friends that went along the lines of "How can she go to the dance if she cant go to her classes?" And i can accept that she isn't one of my friends so doesn't know a lot about me, but what if theres more than just her thinking this?
This reason is really the biggest, but i dont think logically so didnt put it first! It's the fact its in the assembly hall which i havent been in since again September, and it'l be dark, and there will be LOADS of people, and everyone will be moving around and dancing (the fun ones like the military two step n dashing white sergeant and stuff) and Its gona make me uncomfortble and panicky, and i dont want to waste everyones night and be the wee one sittin at the side watching. Ive got plenty of mates, so they wouldn't leave me out, or let me sit out alone, so id feel bad if they sat out with me! And i know i could leave when i wanted, or go out into the big hall next to it, but again someone might come with me, and i dont want them to have their night wasted you know?
The Final reason is......Theres gonna be a buffet. And I'm not the best at eating right now, and i have for years hated eating in front of people, or out of the house for that matter. But if i dont eat ill look stupid, and if i do then well actually, i know i wont be able to! And again I could go out into that hall and sit out there and wait, but someone might follow and theyd be missing theyre night! Or worse.......A teacher could follow, then come the akward questions!
I don't know if you will have any advice for me, i cant see anyway of avoiding these problems! But maybe you's can. I know that my friends do want me to go, (they bought me the ticket as a hint!) but stil......And theyll all be drinking before it, and I would feel obliged to join in, but I know id make myself feel worse in the long run.
Hope your xmas shoppings all going ok. I did a lot of mines on the internet, what a wonderful thing it is!
xxxxx
~Laulz~
See I have been in less than half of my classes since September, so one of the reasons I'm not sure if i should go is Do i really deserve to? Mostly cos of something a girl said to one of my friends that went along the lines of "How can she go to the dance if she cant go to her classes?" And i can accept that she isn't one of my friends so doesn't know a lot about me, but what if theres more than just her thinking this?
This reason is really the biggest, but i dont think logically so didnt put it first! It's the fact its in the assembly hall which i havent been in since again September, and it'l be dark, and there will be LOADS of people, and everyone will be moving around and dancing (the fun ones like the military two step n dashing white sergeant and stuff) and Its gona make me uncomfortble and panicky, and i dont want to waste everyones night and be the wee one sittin at the side watching. Ive got plenty of mates, so they wouldn't leave me out, or let me sit out alone, so id feel bad if they sat out with me! And i know i could leave when i wanted, or go out into the big hall next to it, but again someone might come with me, and i dont want them to have their night wasted you know?
The Final reason is......Theres gonna be a buffet. And I'm not the best at eating right now, and i have for years hated eating in front of people, or out of the house for that matter. But if i dont eat ill look stupid, and if i do then well actually, i know i wont be able to! And again I could go out into that hall and sit out there and wait, but someone might follow and theyd be missing theyre night! Or worse.......A teacher could follow, then come the akward questions!
I don't know if you will have any advice for me, i cant see anyway of avoiding these problems! But maybe you's can. I know that my friends do want me to go, (they bought me the ticket as a hint!) but stil......And theyll all be drinking before it, and I would feel obliged to join in, but I know id make myself feel worse in the long run.
Hope your xmas shoppings all going ok. I did a lot of mines on the internet, what a wonderful thing it is!
xxxxx
~Laulz~