ailsajayne26
29-03-07, 11:55
Hi I was just wondering why we get GAD? I've been told by my family that I was always anxious and a ''worrier'' apparently it was a bit of running joke when I was little... that anything fun I'd be anxious of my family getting hurt!!
So anyway I just wondered how many other people have no major reason for being anxious... My GAD kinda comes and goes... first realy knew something was wrong when I started secondary school... used to panic that I was dying or really ill all the time and that anything I couldn't find I must have swallowed (Que lumpy feeling in stomach!) ... after I'd settled in I stopped thinking I was that ill (However I have always worried about family!!) Was ok for a few years (Well apart from the usual teenage angst... everybody hates me etc etc!) then during my A'levels that dr's said I had asthma cos I was struggling to get breath in (know now thats my classic anxiety breathing thing!) This went away following a period of depression at university (Fixed by counselling and making friends!). Was fine until last year when I thought my asthma had come back.... eventually following many trips to dr's regarding pains and not breathing and all kinds of things... they diagnosed me with anxiety.... So now rest of my symptoms went bonkers!! I'm doing much better now... having CBT and learning to relax and not let the crazy overthinking take control!!
One of my counsellors asked me loads of questions about my childhood (which was very happy and loving and stable) which later made me panic that I must have a hidden secret that I don't remember.. having talked to a friedn who was abused I realised I would have known.. plus I was never left alone with people, and my parents always did stuff together... anwya y back to the point....
I just really wondered if other people have totally unexplainable GAD. I'm pretty sure my GAD is based around things I can't control... but I think as two year old I wouldn't have understood that!! MAybe as a very small kid I was intellegent enough to believe too much into he ''don't touch that its dangerous'' thing and trsnalted that into more worrying and started a cycle??
Sorry this is a really long post... I sometimes find writing stuff on here helps me work through it in my head!
Thanks for reading this!!
Ailsx
So anyway I just wondered how many other people have no major reason for being anxious... My GAD kinda comes and goes... first realy knew something was wrong when I started secondary school... used to panic that I was dying or really ill all the time and that anything I couldn't find I must have swallowed (Que lumpy feeling in stomach!) ... after I'd settled in I stopped thinking I was that ill (However I have always worried about family!!) Was ok for a few years (Well apart from the usual teenage angst... everybody hates me etc etc!) then during my A'levels that dr's said I had asthma cos I was struggling to get breath in (know now thats my classic anxiety breathing thing!) This went away following a period of depression at university (Fixed by counselling and making friends!). Was fine until last year when I thought my asthma had come back.... eventually following many trips to dr's regarding pains and not breathing and all kinds of things... they diagnosed me with anxiety.... So now rest of my symptoms went bonkers!! I'm doing much better now... having CBT and learning to relax and not let the crazy overthinking take control!!
One of my counsellors asked me loads of questions about my childhood (which was very happy and loving and stable) which later made me panic that I must have a hidden secret that I don't remember.. having talked to a friedn who was abused I realised I would have known.. plus I was never left alone with people, and my parents always did stuff together... anwya y back to the point....
I just really wondered if other people have totally unexplainable GAD. I'm pretty sure my GAD is based around things I can't control... but I think as two year old I wouldn't have understood that!! MAybe as a very small kid I was intellegent enough to believe too much into he ''don't touch that its dangerous'' thing and trsnalted that into more worrying and started a cycle??
Sorry this is a really long post... I sometimes find writing stuff on here helps me work through it in my head!
Thanks for reading this!!
Ailsx