tingalayo
26-08-16, 12:41
I'm having a horrible time at the moment :weep: I'm obsessed with the idea that I'm going to be infertile. We haven't started trying yet but we will do next year and the agony of NOT KNOWING whether I'll be able to conceive or not is killing me.
I have very little real reason to think I'm infertile really - the one thing I have that I'm completely obsessed over is that when I have my period I get small stabbing pains in my bum when I go to the toilet, which is often given as a common symptom of endometriosis. I have done so much Googling on the subject that I now get triggered by the word 'stab'. Although I have gathered that the way I get it is pretty mild i.e. it makes me wince a bit, and my periods pains are very mild overall, which doesn't fit the experience of anyone with endometriosis who post about this symptom (they say things like 'I nearly fainted it's so bad' 'I can't go to the toilet at all it's so bad' 'I can't get out of bed it's so bad' and I've never experienced anything like that).
But despite that I'm still pretty convinced I have endometriosis and there hasn't been a day since March when I haven't spent the whole day thinking about it. It doesn't help that a lot of the time endo has no symptoms at all (I'm sure you guys know only too well how hard it is to convince yourself you don't have something when a lot of the time it has mild or no symptoms, ovarian cancer being a good example).
So here I am, completely unable to think about anything but this and I'm finding it so difficult to cope :weep: Can somebody please give me some helpful advice or just kind words?
I have very little real reason to think I'm infertile really - the one thing I have that I'm completely obsessed over is that when I have my period I get small stabbing pains in my bum when I go to the toilet, which is often given as a common symptom of endometriosis. I have done so much Googling on the subject that I now get triggered by the word 'stab'. Although I have gathered that the way I get it is pretty mild i.e. it makes me wince a bit, and my periods pains are very mild overall, which doesn't fit the experience of anyone with endometriosis who post about this symptom (they say things like 'I nearly fainted it's so bad' 'I can't go to the toilet at all it's so bad' 'I can't get out of bed it's so bad' and I've never experienced anything like that).
But despite that I'm still pretty convinced I have endometriosis and there hasn't been a day since March when I haven't spent the whole day thinking about it. It doesn't help that a lot of the time endo has no symptoms at all (I'm sure you guys know only too well how hard it is to convince yourself you don't have something when a lot of the time it has mild or no symptoms, ovarian cancer being a good example).
So here I am, completely unable to think about anything but this and I'm finding it so difficult to cope :weep: Can somebody please give me some helpful advice or just kind words?