darkwater12
17-07-16, 18:22
About a month and half ago I started to get dizziness, and at one point I almost fully passed out, I was nearly on the ground but I didn't loose consciousness. Freak me out of course. Went for blood work, came back fine. I was worried that I was developing diabetes or anemia since that runs on my mom's side of the family. At some point when test were coming back normal, I thought, mmm, okay well, I've been stressed out about some things for a while maybe its that. Didn't really think to much of at least not seriously.
Then a couple of weeks after that. I started to get dizzy again but this time I was having severe nausea, then the panic attacks started to come. At that time I didn’t realize I was having panic attacks. I never experience that feeling before so of course this put me in a state of worry on a huge level. I told myself, omg something is wrong, this is not like me, wtf is going on. I wasn’t sleeping well, and my eating habit was terrible. I put up with this for over a week or so, till I had a massive panic attack and threw up. I went to the urgent care, they did the normal stuff, fluid, blood/urine test, did some other things to. Other then my heart rate which was through the roof everything was fine. They got my heart rate down to a normal level after the fluid and anti-nausea kicked in. Sent me home but I was still left feeling like something was seriously wrong.
Went to my doctor, she said I probably came down with a stomach virus and that's why I was feeling sick. Blood test were normal. I accepted that although by this time mentally I was freaking out that something was seriously wrong. I told my doctor that my heart was always going fast, and I feel like my adrenaline is through the roof. I don't have irregular heart beats and I wouldn't say I've had heart palpation either. It just feels like I'm going all the time. So she put me on xanax, that helped calm me down although I don't like the drowsiness it causes so I only took it at night. For awhile this helped since I was only really have the panic attacks at nighttime.
Then about a week- week half ago my panic attacks were coming all the time and hard even after I got up in the morning. I couldn't stop thinking about the pressure in my chest. So I started to take more xanax. My limit is three times a day at 0.5mg so I don't go over that. At one point I started to throw up again, I wasn't sure If I had a bad reaction. Once again, bbaaaccckkk to the doctor. I told her, look I realize I might be causing this mentally, but I also know that other problems can cause anxiety issues and my other symptoms so before we jump the gun that I'm cracking up(and I say that with humor not in an insulting way towards myself or even to other people who are going through the same thing). I told her to check my thyroid, of course that came back normal. There was other stuff she didn't feel like I could have, such as menopause (I'm only 30 but women can start that early).
Now I'm schedule to have an echocardiogram and holter monitor this Friday. I've already spent close to 800 bucks this month going to the doctor, getting medications, and having test done.
I'm having a serious debate. I understand I need to rule everything out especially for my peace of mind but if my chest feels better while on xanax shouldn't that be a sign that its me not my chest? or could the medication just be masking something else?. I've started to have headaches and shoulder soreness now which is worrying me, now I'm always thinking, should I ask for a CT scan to(which is not cheap ) but then I feel silly knowing its probably the stress. If my brain was going to explode it would have by now. :huh: I guess I need to just suck it up and go for the test even though I don't want to spend anymore money.
I can't afford to keep going to the doctor for every little problem, I'm sitting here typing this out and I can't believe I've turned into a hypochondriac. All this in little over a month. My whole life I've always been an anxious person but I have NEVER in my life had this issue physically and mentally. Its been hell. Day and night I feel terrible, I can't shake off that doom feeling.
I am looking into seeing a therapist, I have a pretty resilient mind, I've read self help therapy books in the past and they work, but this time I think its gone way beyond my control. I don’t want to take xanax but right now its the only thing holding me together :weep: I'm not a depressed person but this has prevent me from wanting to do things, mostly because the medication makes you tired and honesty you care less about things on it. I don't feel like my normal self anymore.
Has anyone gone through something like this so fast, not having had problems before? My rant was long so thanks for reading it. :)
Then a couple of weeks after that. I started to get dizzy again but this time I was having severe nausea, then the panic attacks started to come. At that time I didn’t realize I was having panic attacks. I never experience that feeling before so of course this put me in a state of worry on a huge level. I told myself, omg something is wrong, this is not like me, wtf is going on. I wasn’t sleeping well, and my eating habit was terrible. I put up with this for over a week or so, till I had a massive panic attack and threw up. I went to the urgent care, they did the normal stuff, fluid, blood/urine test, did some other things to. Other then my heart rate which was through the roof everything was fine. They got my heart rate down to a normal level after the fluid and anti-nausea kicked in. Sent me home but I was still left feeling like something was seriously wrong.
Went to my doctor, she said I probably came down with a stomach virus and that's why I was feeling sick. Blood test were normal. I accepted that although by this time mentally I was freaking out that something was seriously wrong. I told my doctor that my heart was always going fast, and I feel like my adrenaline is through the roof. I don't have irregular heart beats and I wouldn't say I've had heart palpation either. It just feels like I'm going all the time. So she put me on xanax, that helped calm me down although I don't like the drowsiness it causes so I only took it at night. For awhile this helped since I was only really have the panic attacks at nighttime.
Then about a week- week half ago my panic attacks were coming all the time and hard even after I got up in the morning. I couldn't stop thinking about the pressure in my chest. So I started to take more xanax. My limit is three times a day at 0.5mg so I don't go over that. At one point I started to throw up again, I wasn't sure If I had a bad reaction. Once again, bbaaaccckkk to the doctor. I told her, look I realize I might be causing this mentally, but I also know that other problems can cause anxiety issues and my other symptoms so before we jump the gun that I'm cracking up(and I say that with humor not in an insulting way towards myself or even to other people who are going through the same thing). I told her to check my thyroid, of course that came back normal. There was other stuff she didn't feel like I could have, such as menopause (I'm only 30 but women can start that early).
Now I'm schedule to have an echocardiogram and holter monitor this Friday. I've already spent close to 800 bucks this month going to the doctor, getting medications, and having test done.
I'm having a serious debate. I understand I need to rule everything out especially for my peace of mind but if my chest feels better while on xanax shouldn't that be a sign that its me not my chest? or could the medication just be masking something else?. I've started to have headaches and shoulder soreness now which is worrying me, now I'm always thinking, should I ask for a CT scan to(which is not cheap ) but then I feel silly knowing its probably the stress. If my brain was going to explode it would have by now. :huh: I guess I need to just suck it up and go for the test even though I don't want to spend anymore money.
I can't afford to keep going to the doctor for every little problem, I'm sitting here typing this out and I can't believe I've turned into a hypochondriac. All this in little over a month. My whole life I've always been an anxious person but I have NEVER in my life had this issue physically and mentally. Its been hell. Day and night I feel terrible, I can't shake off that doom feeling.
I am looking into seeing a therapist, I have a pretty resilient mind, I've read self help therapy books in the past and they work, but this time I think its gone way beyond my control. I don’t want to take xanax but right now its the only thing holding me together :weep: I'm not a depressed person but this has prevent me from wanting to do things, mostly because the medication makes you tired and honesty you care less about things on it. I don't feel like my normal self anymore.
Has anyone gone through something like this so fast, not having had problems before? My rant was long so thanks for reading it. :)