DonnaT
21-05-16, 08:29
I have dealt with ha for ten years now and when I have a bad turn It always just seems to get worse and worse. I thought the last health fear I had was bad and that maybe if I got through that one that the next one wouldn't be so bad ir that I could deal with it easier and move I quicker. How wrong was i ????????:blush: They get worse and worse with each episode.
I'm in such a mess I'm laying in bed in a huge panic about everything. I've even started to get palpations which means I know I'm really stressed. I have weird visual things going on, back ache, tingling. All of these symptoms are related to the problem I think I have.
I have wonderful children and I'm to frightened to get up out of bed because I don't want to have another day of worry and trying really hard nit to have symptoms (if that makes sense) nobody around me understands even my mother who is herself on medication for anxiety.
even tho I've had this a long time I have trouble getting my head around the fact anxiety can do this to you and that frightens me.
I have a opticians appointment on Monday and I'm so so frightened they will find something bad. I don't have anybody to talk to nobody wants to listen because they have all had enough of me which I understand but I just need a shoulder, a hug and patience. I'm on medication again and starting cbt soon and trying other things to help but I just want to be happy and enjoy my life and especially my beautiful children. I'm afraid to be on my own without another adult in the house, I'm afraid to drive even tho I'm just about to drive to london:roflmao: I'm afraid to leave the house afraid to stay in the house. Afraid to get up, afraid to keep laying down. I just wish I was normal. The only thing that makes me smile is my newborn baby and my children.
I'm sorry to put this on you all when your all going through your own problems but I have nobody.
I'm in such a mess I'm laying in bed in a huge panic about everything. I've even started to get palpations which means I know I'm really stressed. I have weird visual things going on, back ache, tingling. All of these symptoms are related to the problem I think I have.
I have wonderful children and I'm to frightened to get up out of bed because I don't want to have another day of worry and trying really hard nit to have symptoms (if that makes sense) nobody around me understands even my mother who is herself on medication for anxiety.
even tho I've had this a long time I have trouble getting my head around the fact anxiety can do this to you and that frightens me.
I have a opticians appointment on Monday and I'm so so frightened they will find something bad. I don't have anybody to talk to nobody wants to listen because they have all had enough of me which I understand but I just need a shoulder, a hug and patience. I'm on medication again and starting cbt soon and trying other things to help but I just want to be happy and enjoy my life and especially my beautiful children. I'm afraid to be on my own without another adult in the house, I'm afraid to drive even tho I'm just about to drive to london:roflmao: I'm afraid to leave the house afraid to stay in the house. Afraid to get up, afraid to keep laying down. I just wish I was normal. The only thing that makes me smile is my newborn baby and my children.
I'm sorry to put this on you all when your all going through your own problems but I have nobody.