ian6989
10-02-16, 16:54
hi people I'm new to this forum.
I've battled anxiety for years and have been on citalopram 40mg for about 4 years. I have recently took a turn for the worse and starting to move onto mirtazapine. which i have been having at night 15mg whilst tapering off the citalopram. i have seen a psychiatrist who says it is very very obsessional thinking. but i am not to sure? what it feels like is i have this feeling that enters my mind that i can't get rid of? it just a feeling every now and again it comes and goes but has no logical explanation. every time i get a thought in my head it feels like the thought isn't mine in a way. i hear a voice in my mind that comments on things and says kill your mum when she is around. i feel like my mind goes totally blank. sounds like someone is speaking to me sometimes in my head ? when I'm sat there I'm like i can't figure out how a normal person thinks. now i have it lodged into my head that i have never been well all my life ? i just feel really weird and scared. I'm scared to see my friends etc... its like this feeling is just sometimes there (which it is now) and sometimes its not then i start to think why has it gone away? it feels like a feeling but when it goes away it is a thought. why i start speaking to people on the phone its like this inner voice tells me to tell people to f**k off. i also have a big fear of psychosis and schizophrenia. i just always feel really really odd?? sometimes my thoughts don't seem like my own. they just like pop in my head?? i am awaiting counselling to start on friday CBT. as i have been assured it is not psychosis but i still think it is. its like i don't no what to think of. i don't no how a normal person thinks ? any help would be greatly appreciated.
I've battled anxiety for years and have been on citalopram 40mg for about 4 years. I have recently took a turn for the worse and starting to move onto mirtazapine. which i have been having at night 15mg whilst tapering off the citalopram. i have seen a psychiatrist who says it is very very obsessional thinking. but i am not to sure? what it feels like is i have this feeling that enters my mind that i can't get rid of? it just a feeling every now and again it comes and goes but has no logical explanation. every time i get a thought in my head it feels like the thought isn't mine in a way. i hear a voice in my mind that comments on things and says kill your mum when she is around. i feel like my mind goes totally blank. sounds like someone is speaking to me sometimes in my head ? when I'm sat there I'm like i can't figure out how a normal person thinks. now i have it lodged into my head that i have never been well all my life ? i just feel really weird and scared. I'm scared to see my friends etc... its like this feeling is just sometimes there (which it is now) and sometimes its not then i start to think why has it gone away? it feels like a feeling but when it goes away it is a thought. why i start speaking to people on the phone its like this inner voice tells me to tell people to f**k off. i also have a big fear of psychosis and schizophrenia. i just always feel really really odd?? sometimes my thoughts don't seem like my own. they just like pop in my head?? i am awaiting counselling to start on friday CBT. as i have been assured it is not psychosis but i still think it is. its like i don't no what to think of. i don't no how a normal person thinks ? any help would be greatly appreciated.