Cptdebbie
24-08-15, 05:11
I am delighted to find this support group. It has already helped me to feel like I'm not all alone in my phobias that I find so hard to fight.
I had a breast lump that was removed about a year ago. It was classified as benign but atypical and with hyperplasia. I went in this week with to have my 12 month see what is happening. When I had my MRI, my creatinine level was 1.5. I went in for my regular annual blood work two days later and it was 1.3, still slightly elevated.
These levels are about twice as high as mine have always been. My doctor said she thinks I was just dehydrated, and she has also taken me off a diuretic I take for my HB pressure to see if that helps. I am supposed to get retested this Friday. I don't think she would have requested a retest, though, except that I reminded her that we had doubled my diuretic dosage and changed the type on my last visit since my blood pressure was running a bit high. So, my doc doesn't seem worried at all.
I, on the other hand, am sure I have kidney cancer. I don't understand why I go so quickly so the worst possible outcome. I'm not even worried about the fact that my breast MRI showed a small something that the docs think is scarring from last years surgery. I have to get retested in 6 months to see if it's growing. Fixating on that seems more reasonable. Yet, here I am sure that I will find out that I have kidney cancer.
I know these thoughts are anxiety driven and not from the reasonable part of my being, yet I can't seem to control them. The only thing that seems to help is to keep myself busy and otherwise occupied so I won't think about it. Sometimes, though, when I am going through these episodes, it all overwhelms me and I get debilitated. I just can't get up and get busy.
I'm a 55 year old female, married to a wonderful man for 35 1/2 years, and have 5 children, and 7 grandchildren. I have lots to be grateful for. And, if I were unfortunate to come down with a terminal disease, I wouldn't want to spend the time I have left being anxious and depressed.
I just am not quite sure how to fix me. I've been to plenty of therapy and take medication. I'm still here, though, doing the same thing.
Your suggestions would be much appreciated.
I had a breast lump that was removed about a year ago. It was classified as benign but atypical and with hyperplasia. I went in this week with to have my 12 month see what is happening. When I had my MRI, my creatinine level was 1.5. I went in for my regular annual blood work two days later and it was 1.3, still slightly elevated.
These levels are about twice as high as mine have always been. My doctor said she thinks I was just dehydrated, and she has also taken me off a diuretic I take for my HB pressure to see if that helps. I am supposed to get retested this Friday. I don't think she would have requested a retest, though, except that I reminded her that we had doubled my diuretic dosage and changed the type on my last visit since my blood pressure was running a bit high. So, my doc doesn't seem worried at all.
I, on the other hand, am sure I have kidney cancer. I don't understand why I go so quickly so the worst possible outcome. I'm not even worried about the fact that my breast MRI showed a small something that the docs think is scarring from last years surgery. I have to get retested in 6 months to see if it's growing. Fixating on that seems more reasonable. Yet, here I am sure that I will find out that I have kidney cancer.
I know these thoughts are anxiety driven and not from the reasonable part of my being, yet I can't seem to control them. The only thing that seems to help is to keep myself busy and otherwise occupied so I won't think about it. Sometimes, though, when I am going through these episodes, it all overwhelms me and I get debilitated. I just can't get up and get busy.
I'm a 55 year old female, married to a wonderful man for 35 1/2 years, and have 5 children, and 7 grandchildren. I have lots to be grateful for. And, if I were unfortunate to come down with a terminal disease, I wouldn't want to spend the time I have left being anxious and depressed.
I just am not quite sure how to fix me. I've been to plenty of therapy and take medication. I'm still here, though, doing the same thing.
Your suggestions would be much appreciated.