helpneeded
03-08-15, 03:57
I DONT KNOW WHATS HAPPENING
I have never been so low in my life.. I have never ever had sex drive in my life ( despite being married ( seperated) havign two kids) I HAVE ALWAYS HAD 0 INTREST IN SEX OR ANYTHING
I feel so so so so low. so low that my ex was spending the day with the kids. he was supposed to start work at 7pm. i left and i havent been back ad he didnt go to work. i havent picked up the calls . ( dont start on me he is no saint either) but i know its unreasonable i couldnt go back. i feel so numb.
and then were i am now on my own the urge to you know do the thing that makes you orgasm over whelmes me! and i ended up needing to do it!! over and over what the hell? i do not do this niehter do i have a sex drive ever in my life. this has been this way for the last 3 days even imagining having sex with my husband i am seperated from!
I feel very strange. i have never felt this strange in all my life. you think whats the big deal you have a sex drive now but this is not me!!!!! this is not normal and its too much. to actually be desperate for an orgasm. when i could happily go years without it.
Current diagnosis. OCD, DEPRESSION,ANXIETY,PANIC DISORDER,AGRAPHOBIA.
CURRENT MEDS - started effexor/venflaxine 37.5mg twice a day abou 3 weeks ago. missed this evening dose because wasnt at home.
please help me. i dont know whats happpening.
feel numb yet depressed. dont want to spend time with my kids or my mum who i love i dont want to see anyone
i dont enjoy spendingn time with the kids everythings over whelming.
i dont enjoy anything i am not suicidle because i have children. but i am so so low i have never been this low in all my life and ive been through some extreem trauma in my life. including a lot of physical violence. and still never been this low.
im scared im going crazy. please tell me whats happening.
i just finnished 2 packet of biscuits its 03.51 am and i feel so very hyper like extreemly hyper if i was talking id be talking so fast. is there any point of sleeping tonight i have to be up at 9. or shall i stay up till morning and sleep tommorow night. i have 3 things to do then see my mum in hosp.
okay. i need to try and calm down. honestly i am feeling very strange , like i could get up right now and run somwere. but i dont like running i hate running. i am so lazy i dont excersise i just eat and eat. what do i do . i cant even stop typing. honestly something isnt right i know it and i can feel it and i bet no one responds to this , i never ask for help but somthing is not right is all i can say, il go for now i hope someone seees this.
i discclaimier i am off no risk of harming mysef or any other individual. just to clarify that because i know i sound off my head. but i have still got a few bits of brain left if in my head though the rest has melted.
---------- Post added at 03:55 ---------- Previous post was at 03:54 ----------
my herts beating so fast like i have been running. i dont know why
---------- Post added at 03:57 ---------- Previous post was at 03:55 ----------
i ca hear my heart beating while my heads on the pillow
I have never been so low in my life.. I have never ever had sex drive in my life ( despite being married ( seperated) havign two kids) I HAVE ALWAYS HAD 0 INTREST IN SEX OR ANYTHING
I feel so so so so low. so low that my ex was spending the day with the kids. he was supposed to start work at 7pm. i left and i havent been back ad he didnt go to work. i havent picked up the calls . ( dont start on me he is no saint either) but i know its unreasonable i couldnt go back. i feel so numb.
and then were i am now on my own the urge to you know do the thing that makes you orgasm over whelmes me! and i ended up needing to do it!! over and over what the hell? i do not do this niehter do i have a sex drive ever in my life. this has been this way for the last 3 days even imagining having sex with my husband i am seperated from!
I feel very strange. i have never felt this strange in all my life. you think whats the big deal you have a sex drive now but this is not me!!!!! this is not normal and its too much. to actually be desperate for an orgasm. when i could happily go years without it.
Current diagnosis. OCD, DEPRESSION,ANXIETY,PANIC DISORDER,AGRAPHOBIA.
CURRENT MEDS - started effexor/venflaxine 37.5mg twice a day abou 3 weeks ago. missed this evening dose because wasnt at home.
please help me. i dont know whats happpening.
feel numb yet depressed. dont want to spend time with my kids or my mum who i love i dont want to see anyone
i dont enjoy spendingn time with the kids everythings over whelming.
i dont enjoy anything i am not suicidle because i have children. but i am so so low i have never been this low in all my life and ive been through some extreem trauma in my life. including a lot of physical violence. and still never been this low.
im scared im going crazy. please tell me whats happening.
i just finnished 2 packet of biscuits its 03.51 am and i feel so very hyper like extreemly hyper if i was talking id be talking so fast. is there any point of sleeping tonight i have to be up at 9. or shall i stay up till morning and sleep tommorow night. i have 3 things to do then see my mum in hosp.
okay. i need to try and calm down. honestly i am feeling very strange , like i could get up right now and run somwere. but i dont like running i hate running. i am so lazy i dont excersise i just eat and eat. what do i do . i cant even stop typing. honestly something isnt right i know it and i can feel it and i bet no one responds to this , i never ask for help but somthing is not right is all i can say, il go for now i hope someone seees this.
i discclaimier i am off no risk of harming mysef or any other individual. just to clarify that because i know i sound off my head. but i have still got a few bits of brain left if in my head though the rest has melted.
---------- Post added at 03:55 ---------- Previous post was at 03:54 ----------
my herts beating so fast like i have been running. i dont know why
---------- Post added at 03:57 ---------- Previous post was at 03:55 ----------
i ca hear my heart beating while my heads on the pillow