honeybun44
02-06-15, 01:56
This is my first post---but I've been a faithful lurker . Health anxiety tends to rule my life. I've falsely diagnosed myself with breast cancer, liver cancer, colon cancer, ALS, MS, brain tumors, heart failure.... :doh:
But, here's today. I'm 44. I've had lots and lots of sunburns. I started getting yearly skin checks about 5 years ago. Today the doctor examined me and everything looked good. Then I remembered a spot that is at the very very very very top of my inner thigh. Sort of dark and patchy looking. Flat.
She decided to take it off because it was asymmetrical. Now I'm a nervous wreck and fully believe that Google is the devil. A person like me should NOT HAVE ACCESS to that kind of tool. I swear I've found a dozen pictures that 'match' what she took off today. I've actually gotten out my ruler to count out how big 6 mm is and try to remember how big my 'area' was, which, by the way, now hurts like heck and left a big hole in my leg. She took a picture of it with her ipad before she removed it, which she has never done before when she removed a mole. Yeah, that did great things for my anxiety. :(
I have to wait for the results, and I'm convinced---CONVINCED---that it's melanoma. And, what if I hadn't shown her? I always worry that something like this will define how my story will go: "Can you believe it? It was melanoma. She almost didn't even show the doctor...can you imagine?"
Driving my ever-patient and loving husband batty. Wondering if anyone can relate.
But, here's today. I'm 44. I've had lots and lots of sunburns. I started getting yearly skin checks about 5 years ago. Today the doctor examined me and everything looked good. Then I remembered a spot that is at the very very very very top of my inner thigh. Sort of dark and patchy looking. Flat.
She decided to take it off because it was asymmetrical. Now I'm a nervous wreck and fully believe that Google is the devil. A person like me should NOT HAVE ACCESS to that kind of tool. I swear I've found a dozen pictures that 'match' what she took off today. I've actually gotten out my ruler to count out how big 6 mm is and try to remember how big my 'area' was, which, by the way, now hurts like heck and left a big hole in my leg. She took a picture of it with her ipad before she removed it, which she has never done before when she removed a mole. Yeah, that did great things for my anxiety. :(
I have to wait for the results, and I'm convinced---CONVINCED---that it's melanoma. And, what if I hadn't shown her? I always worry that something like this will define how my story will go: "Can you believe it? It was melanoma. She almost didn't even show the doctor...can you imagine?"
Driving my ever-patient and loving husband batty. Wondering if anyone can relate.