beckyblue
03-05-15, 21:52
So tonight I've had a bit of a revelation..
I suffer from various anxieties, one being fear of abandonment.
It's something I know I've had since being a child, where I would be afraid of not being around my Mum.
Skip to modern day and I have an increasing issue with my boyfriend being away from me, even just on a night out or meeting friends in the day.
I know it's unfair on him so I try not to make it cloud my judgement when he wants to go out, but sometimes I just can't help it and get anxious/angry/emotional.
Anyway.. tonight he wanted to go for a few beers and I actually felt like I wanted an evening on my own, so didn't make a fuss.
But now I'm home-alone, in the flat, in the evening (rarely happens) I've realised my my overwhelming emotion isn't anxiety over where he is, if he's having a too much fun without me (etc), it's actually fear. I'm actually scared of being on my own here.
Every noise I hear is making me jump. I'm worried that people are snooping around the garden, that the guy who lives above us is going to try break in, even that there are ghosts (I feel so silly saying that..!)
So.. I guess I wanted to share this revelation! Do any of you out there feel the same? How do you cope and did you ever work out why you feel this way?
Thanks :)
I suffer from various anxieties, one being fear of abandonment.
It's something I know I've had since being a child, where I would be afraid of not being around my Mum.
Skip to modern day and I have an increasing issue with my boyfriend being away from me, even just on a night out or meeting friends in the day.
I know it's unfair on him so I try not to make it cloud my judgement when he wants to go out, but sometimes I just can't help it and get anxious/angry/emotional.
Anyway.. tonight he wanted to go for a few beers and I actually felt like I wanted an evening on my own, so didn't make a fuss.
But now I'm home-alone, in the flat, in the evening (rarely happens) I've realised my my overwhelming emotion isn't anxiety over where he is, if he's having a too much fun without me (etc), it's actually fear. I'm actually scared of being on my own here.
Every noise I hear is making me jump. I'm worried that people are snooping around the garden, that the guy who lives above us is going to try break in, even that there are ghosts (I feel so silly saying that..!)
So.. I guess I wanted to share this revelation! Do any of you out there feel the same? How do you cope and did you ever work out why you feel this way?
Thanks :)