CCM
17-01-07, 20:28
I am suffering with depression and social anxiety, I'm male,22. I have always been a shy person for as long as i can remember. I was brought up by my mother, she was depressed since the split from my father when i was very young. She often criticized him, me, other family members, people on tele, people in streets. So i've grown up very self critical, and thinking everyone must be critical of others. I don't like to go out because i feel people are watching and judging me, even if i can't see nobody around. Logically i know it's untrue, and stupid, but it's the way i feel. I've tried on my own to change my beliefs, because im my opinion believing is seeing, you believe something and your mind will find evidence to back it up. It worked for some time and i felt pretty good, but i always knew i had a long way to go and i still felt a nagging feeling that i was being watched, judged and criticised.
I know my childhood has something to do with it, being told a lot of No's can't cannot, should, shouldn't, all controlling words and behavior which has resulted in my low self esteem and negative thinking.
I haven't spoken to anybody about my problem, i don't come from a close family where we share feelings. That kind of thing isn't really taken seriously. I have no close friends to talk with, and i don't like the thought of talking to my doctor about it. Through shyness, lack of confidence, fear of judgement and criticism.
I would like to hear from those who are, have been or know someone in the same or similar situation. And what you or they did or are doing to over come it.
Those who spoke to a doctor. Was it difficult? Did you do it alone?
I know my childhood has something to do with it, being told a lot of No's can't cannot, should, shouldn't, all controlling words and behavior which has resulted in my low self esteem and negative thinking.
I haven't spoken to anybody about my problem, i don't come from a close family where we share feelings. That kind of thing isn't really taken seriously. I have no close friends to talk with, and i don't like the thought of talking to my doctor about it. Through shyness, lack of confidence, fear of judgement and criticism.
I would like to hear from those who are, have been or know someone in the same or similar situation. And what you or they did or are doing to over come it.
Those who spoke to a doctor. Was it difficult? Did you do it alone?