Ollie28
14-09-14, 15:28
My wife cheated on me nearly 12 month ago, I found out by chance and even though I found out for the 5 months after I allowed my partner to treat me like dirt in a bad way why she carried on her "what ever it was" with this lad.
After a long period of hell we got back together.
I am now in a bad way as a result of it all, I struggle to do basic things me don't feel anything like I use to, I've been in such a dark horrible place and some of the things I've experienced I don't know how I've dodged hospital or a psycho ward.
I've been suicidle due to how I now feel and what I'm going through,
I ended up in A&E on Wednesday night I tried to take my own life and I cut myself in a bad way that I had to call an ambulance & ended up with 7 stitches.
I've been well and healthy all my life with a good career, 2 amazing kids I love but I just can't cope no more with how I feel and what I'm mentally going through.
I love my wife and want nothing more than to have our life's back as it was but why I'm going through going through this I hate her so much for it all.
I'm only 30 and I'm not a bad looking person and I had a lot going for me but the shock and following trauma has destroyed me & my life,
I can't bring myself to leave my partner because I love her we've been together since 16 YOA but I don't think I can ever forgive her.
I go through so many thoughts each day I'm everywhere. I'm gotta Lou disconnected from everything, I don't know what to do no more.
I don't know how to get my life back to some stage of feeling like I can live a little.
I don't want to die but I don't want to go through life feeling like this no more.
I'm full of frustration and anger, sorrow and guilt, I have 0 self asteam,
In the last 7 months I've lost myself, my car, my job, I only have my wife and kids left. Life's not worth living no more I fear for my future.
I fear if il ever feel like I use to or feel anywhere near my old self.
After a long period of hell we got back together.
I am now in a bad way as a result of it all, I struggle to do basic things me don't feel anything like I use to, I've been in such a dark horrible place and some of the things I've experienced I don't know how I've dodged hospital or a psycho ward.
I've been suicidle due to how I now feel and what I'm going through,
I ended up in A&E on Wednesday night I tried to take my own life and I cut myself in a bad way that I had to call an ambulance & ended up with 7 stitches.
I've been well and healthy all my life with a good career, 2 amazing kids I love but I just can't cope no more with how I feel and what I'm mentally going through.
I love my wife and want nothing more than to have our life's back as it was but why I'm going through going through this I hate her so much for it all.
I'm only 30 and I'm not a bad looking person and I had a lot going for me but the shock and following trauma has destroyed me & my life,
I can't bring myself to leave my partner because I love her we've been together since 16 YOA but I don't think I can ever forgive her.
I go through so many thoughts each day I'm everywhere. I'm gotta Lou disconnected from everything, I don't know what to do no more.
I don't know how to get my life back to some stage of feeling like I can live a little.
I don't want to die but I don't want to go through life feeling like this no more.
I'm full of frustration and anger, sorrow and guilt, I have 0 self asteam,
In the last 7 months I've lost myself, my car, my job, I only have my wife and kids left. Life's not worth living no more I fear for my future.
I fear if il ever feel like I use to or feel anywhere near my old self.