gettingthere14
04-05-14, 10:25
Hi
I've had anxiety/depression for about 25 years now. It began when i was 17 and had a daughter who died at 2 days old, and a few other horrible things. I now have 6 children, 2 adult, 4 still at home. Last year my 13yr old daughter, now 14, was diagnosed with leukemia and in January of this year had a bone marrow transplant. Me being me I tried to cope with her illness on my own. Hardly spoke about it to my husband because he was always wrong. I shunned all offers of help/counselling etc. I tried to carry on as normal as though she had a cold or something. Not accepting the severity of her illness! What a fool I was. This was because i thought " normal " people cope without help and so can I. Anyway, finally agreed to meet a Macmillan nurse this Tuesday and realized it's not because i'm weak, it's because we all need help at some time in our life. I've also been on 20mg citalopram for 7 years but upped them to 30mg last Thursday. I'm here in the hope of a little extra help from like minded people who wont tell me " you just have to get on with it ". So sick of hearing this! My anxiety has increased 10 fold and all of my phobias, social, illness,death surround me 24/7. My daughter is doing really well and is nearly back to 100% health but i'm finding i'm going back into myself. Headaches are either a brain tumor or the beginning of a stroke, heart flutters when i have to go anywhere and getting out of bed is the biggest chore ever!!
I've had anxiety/depression for about 25 years now. It began when i was 17 and had a daughter who died at 2 days old, and a few other horrible things. I now have 6 children, 2 adult, 4 still at home. Last year my 13yr old daughter, now 14, was diagnosed with leukemia and in January of this year had a bone marrow transplant. Me being me I tried to cope with her illness on my own. Hardly spoke about it to my husband because he was always wrong. I shunned all offers of help/counselling etc. I tried to carry on as normal as though she had a cold or something. Not accepting the severity of her illness! What a fool I was. This was because i thought " normal " people cope without help and so can I. Anyway, finally agreed to meet a Macmillan nurse this Tuesday and realized it's not because i'm weak, it's because we all need help at some time in our life. I've also been on 20mg citalopram for 7 years but upped them to 30mg last Thursday. I'm here in the hope of a little extra help from like minded people who wont tell me " you just have to get on with it ". So sick of hearing this! My anxiety has increased 10 fold and all of my phobias, social, illness,death surround me 24/7. My daughter is doing really well and is nearly back to 100% health but i'm finding i'm going back into myself. Headaches are either a brain tumor or the beginning of a stroke, heart flutters when i have to go anywhere and getting out of bed is the biggest chore ever!!