harasgenster
01-04-14, 18:32
My self esteem has got a lot better over the years, but I still find it easy to experience episodes of self loathing. I'm aware this is irrational, because I rarely - if ever - feel hate towards anyone else, but it's very difficult to afford myself the same treatment. I hate making mistakes in any domain (social, work etc.) and memories of 'mistakes' I've made (quotation marks because I guess it's only really me who sees them as mistakes) crop into my mind quite frequently and make me feel really angry.
It's fairly simple to be rational about it and prove to myself I wouldn't feel the same way if a friend had made the same 'mistakes' but rationality doesn't really do anything about the feelings of hate and anger. I know I'm being irrational, but I don't believe it, if that makes sense.
It's important to me that I iron out any self-sabotaging patterns I'm in because I'm determined that I will stay well now! I want to nip this in the bud before it starts causing problems.
Anybody found anything that works well?
It's fairly simple to be rational about it and prove to myself I wouldn't feel the same way if a friend had made the same 'mistakes' but rationality doesn't really do anything about the feelings of hate and anger. I know I'm being irrational, but I don't believe it, if that makes sense.
It's important to me that I iron out any self-sabotaging patterns I'm in because I'm determined that I will stay well now! I want to nip this in the bud before it starts causing problems.
Anybody found anything that works well?