peach
30-11-06, 08:01
hi everyone,
i posted in oct here first time..well, i made it through all my exams...goodness knows how! lol...and finished this year of university 3 weeks ago...i still get woozy sometimes.. but have been making myself get out of the house in the day.. and have even managed to go out at night.. tho i always run home within an hour...but still proud i made it out at all.. i have even signed up for the gym two weeks ago!!! i have been walking on the treadmill.. and still have feelings of woosyiness and fear to run home and fear im gonna pass out..but i have stayed and finished my 20 min walk. thing is, i STILL have stupid lump in throat..i went back to doc recently and she said it will go away with time since uni ended..but if it continues then go back and have the camera thingie...just the thought of it scares me!!! she felt my neck and looked down my throat, and said she saw nothing, and felt nothing there...
lump has gone down a bit..and i have read here that there are others of you who have had it for months too...im really trying to stay calm, but just the thought it might be throat cancer scares the crap outta me. eating is great, cause the lump disapears then...and its not there when i wake up...i worry im going to choke and that talking irriatates it,so now im hardly talking at all...its also dry sometimes...sorry to vent like this..just want to know im not alone..thank you all for your support!!! i want my life back so much!!!! i look at ppl in the street and get jelous that they can just enjoy thier day....wish i could too...trying hard to stop googling..but fall in its jaws from time to time..even tho doc warned me to stay away from it..lol
i posted in oct here first time..well, i made it through all my exams...goodness knows how! lol...and finished this year of university 3 weeks ago...i still get woozy sometimes.. but have been making myself get out of the house in the day.. and have even managed to go out at night.. tho i always run home within an hour...but still proud i made it out at all.. i have even signed up for the gym two weeks ago!!! i have been walking on the treadmill.. and still have feelings of woosyiness and fear to run home and fear im gonna pass out..but i have stayed and finished my 20 min walk. thing is, i STILL have stupid lump in throat..i went back to doc recently and she said it will go away with time since uni ended..but if it continues then go back and have the camera thingie...just the thought of it scares me!!! she felt my neck and looked down my throat, and said she saw nothing, and felt nothing there...
lump has gone down a bit..and i have read here that there are others of you who have had it for months too...im really trying to stay calm, but just the thought it might be throat cancer scares the crap outta me. eating is great, cause the lump disapears then...and its not there when i wake up...i worry im going to choke and that talking irriatates it,so now im hardly talking at all...its also dry sometimes...sorry to vent like this..just want to know im not alone..thank you all for your support!!! i want my life back so much!!!! i look at ppl in the street and get jelous that they can just enjoy thier day....wish i could too...trying hard to stop googling..but fall in its jaws from time to time..even tho doc warned me to stay away from it..lol