Laramacbain
01-03-13, 11:26
Well I haven't posted on here for the best part of a year- a year ago I had a huge anxiety breakdown and quit a new job after the first day, but I built myself back up and have had a great year.
I started a new job in September at a school as a cover teacher and within a couple of months they wanted to get me qualified as a teacher, then a month ago asked me to take over a class as an unqualified teacher,
I was thrilled, so Monday came and I took over my class, by Wednesday I was having panic attacks and fell apart, I have slept about 5 hours this week, my head teacher sent me home yesterday and I've been signed off by the doctor for a week.
I did not mention that I am getting married next Saturday- why oh why did I agree to the teaching. Hindsight is a wonderful thing hey. I have until 2 weeks until I go back to school (as I have my honeymoon as well as the week I've been signed off) and my head teacher still wants me to carry on with the class teaching, as I cannot go back to the cover teacher role- my position has been filled. So all these thoughts are going through my head, I'm filled with dread, fear and fright and who knows what to do.
Not even looking forward to my wedding and right now feel like I don't want to go back to school, even though it's been the best job I've ever had, I've been so happy the last 6 months and absolutely love working there, but now taken on this new role and everyone says I'll be a fantastic teacher, etc, but I just don't think I can handle it. If I leave these school I wouldn't want to get another job in a different school as I love this one and I really need/want to work!!!! Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah :-(
I started a new job in September at a school as a cover teacher and within a couple of months they wanted to get me qualified as a teacher, then a month ago asked me to take over a class as an unqualified teacher,
I was thrilled, so Monday came and I took over my class, by Wednesday I was having panic attacks and fell apart, I have slept about 5 hours this week, my head teacher sent me home yesterday and I've been signed off by the doctor for a week.
I did not mention that I am getting married next Saturday- why oh why did I agree to the teaching. Hindsight is a wonderful thing hey. I have until 2 weeks until I go back to school (as I have my honeymoon as well as the week I've been signed off) and my head teacher still wants me to carry on with the class teaching, as I cannot go back to the cover teacher role- my position has been filled. So all these thoughts are going through my head, I'm filled with dread, fear and fright and who knows what to do.
Not even looking forward to my wedding and right now feel like I don't want to go back to school, even though it's been the best job I've ever had, I've been so happy the last 6 months and absolutely love working there, but now taken on this new role and everyone says I'll be a fantastic teacher, etc, but I just don't think I can handle it. If I leave these school I wouldn't want to get another job in a different school as I love this one and I really need/want to work!!!! Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah :-(