bignik
27-02-12, 17:38
Hi
Currently getting CBT at the moment , currently suffering from depression , anxiety and acute stress disorder , following a breakdown after losing my business and 2 traumatic incidents in my life which prior to my becoming ill had managed to leave at back of my mind.
Now I am getting distorted dreams in relation to the traumas and flashbacks, even during the day. I kind of go into what I can only describe as a dream state and bang images pop before my eyes.
Anyway .. I keep trying to mentally visualise other images whilst trying to relax , try to picture a memorable moment or picture a garden , landscape etc and cant manage it , even if I close my eyes just now and try for example picture a circle or a square all I see is blackness.
I dont recall prior to being unwell not being able to visualise things and feel frustrated that something as simple fails me
I know sounds silly , I did have it on my notes for my Pyschologist last visit but I forgot to mention it or if she did say anything I havent retained her comments which sadly at the moment I am having difficulty with my concentration
Apart from bad dreams I dont seem to dream about anything else at the moment , when I awake its as if my brain is chugging away all night, dont know if its the medication , something pyschological my brain is supposed to be doing following my CBT or what ....
and to be honest it scares me a little
Any comments or suggestions would be interesting.
current meds. Citalopram 20 mg Mirtazipine 45 mg , been off diazepam now 14 days
Currently getting CBT at the moment , currently suffering from depression , anxiety and acute stress disorder , following a breakdown after losing my business and 2 traumatic incidents in my life which prior to my becoming ill had managed to leave at back of my mind.
Now I am getting distorted dreams in relation to the traumas and flashbacks, even during the day. I kind of go into what I can only describe as a dream state and bang images pop before my eyes.
Anyway .. I keep trying to mentally visualise other images whilst trying to relax , try to picture a memorable moment or picture a garden , landscape etc and cant manage it , even if I close my eyes just now and try for example picture a circle or a square all I see is blackness.
I dont recall prior to being unwell not being able to visualise things and feel frustrated that something as simple fails me
I know sounds silly , I did have it on my notes for my Pyschologist last visit but I forgot to mention it or if she did say anything I havent retained her comments which sadly at the moment I am having difficulty with my concentration
Apart from bad dreams I dont seem to dream about anything else at the moment , when I awake its as if my brain is chugging away all night, dont know if its the medication , something pyschological my brain is supposed to be doing following my CBT or what ....
and to be honest it scares me a little
Any comments or suggestions would be interesting.
current meds. Citalopram 20 mg Mirtazipine 45 mg , been off diazepam now 14 days