giorgos
30-12-11, 20:15
Hello and Merry Xmas to everyone.The last 4 days(including this one) I have been through very-in my opinion- difficult situation concerning my psychologyI am a teenager at the age of 14. It started on 27 December, after going a walk alone to the city centre. When I got home, I suddenly questioned myself "Wow.Why do I have a sister?Why do we exist?Is me me and my mother my mother?". Such questions kept my mind busy for the rest of the day. The day after(28 December) this I started to feel anxious about if those things were real. I spent most of my day in my house but I got out with a friend without being concerned much about the subject. However, after I returned home and went to sleep, I was thinking of my simple,innocent things I done,like walking out, and got really anxious about whether they were real or not,to such extent that I think I had a panic attack. My heart went faster, I felt my stomach and those are feelings I get when I am very afraid of something.Now here is the thing.I do NOT I repeat I do NOT suffer from disorders such as anxiety,depression,derealization disorder,schizofreneia etc. I have not been diagnosed with such disorders. However, the time I am writing this thread, I am really scared that I have one of those disorders. Let me continue on December 29 where the depersonalization feeling started. I felt like I am leaving in a dream. Like I knew my parents were my parents but..what if they are not?I do not mean something that I am adopted. Also, I slightly feel that when I look myself into the mirror I know it is me but what if it is not me? IT SCARES ME A LOT. I spent the whole day(29 December) and the other, searching for what the hell do I have and I think I do have depersonalization or derealization. I have also read around here some encouraging posts that it is nothing and it is a common symptom. Wait wait, I do not even have a disorder for it to be a symptom because I have not been diagnosed with it in previous psychological exams. So do I conclude that I have a depersonalization disorder on its own, which is rare?:scared15: I really hope I have nothing but I very doubt. You know, I would not be so scared if this thing happened to me another time because tomorrow is New Year's Eve and I DO NOT WANT TO BE LIKE HOW I AM NOW. I am scared that I will spend my whole life on pills and on therapies which will not work. I am scared I will have that persistent feeling that my life is a dream and everything is weird.:scared15: I want to live my life again,not survive it. I was never so pessimistic than I am right now. I was always optimistic with health situations but this one has made me lost all of it(being optimistic).Please tell me what do I have?Will I have this feeling for days,weeks,months,years,decades?Will my whole life consist of this?It is not that makes me cry but has scared the shit out of me.
Some additional details
-I am 14(Could it be hormones changing or something?)
-I think I might have depression because I have no mood for anything plus that I have lost a little interest for PCs which was my favorite interest.
-I have stopped addictive-PC use from 25 December (Could that affect me?)
-I do NOT suffer from any disorders such as anxiety or depression due to psychologicals tests.
-I currently cannot visit a psychologist or doctor,as my mother is gong to make an appoiment for a psychologist the next week.
-This whole feeling happens for no reason. No reason at all. No one has abused me, I have not smoked pot, I have no disorders. Nothing at all.
-I feel that my life is like a dream for the past 4 days.
-I cannot ignore it.It is very difficult for me.Whatever I do, I feel that I do it just to stop feeling like that.
Questions
1.What the hell do I have? =|
2.Do I have some very serious disorder such as depression?
3.Will I feel like that for entire months or years?
4.Am I going crazy?
5.Will I ever be able to be fine again soon, or I will have to be like that for many months or years?
6.If I recover from it, will it ever get back?
7.Can this feeling be very dangerous?
8.Can it lead me to being sufferer of mental disorders?
9.Will I spend my whole life with this?
10.Why did it happen in such days that I was very happy at?
11.Will I have to face it by going to therapists and taking medicine?
12.Why everything I do to stop thinking of it makes me again feel I do it just for it to go away?
Thanks for being patient to read this, I appreciate every advice.
I just want to be fine, soon.
:scared15:
Some additional details
-I am 14(Could it be hormones changing or something?)
-I think I might have depression because I have no mood for anything plus that I have lost a little interest for PCs which was my favorite interest.
-I have stopped addictive-PC use from 25 December (Could that affect me?)
-I do NOT suffer from any disorders such as anxiety or depression due to psychologicals tests.
-I currently cannot visit a psychologist or doctor,as my mother is gong to make an appoiment for a psychologist the next week.
-This whole feeling happens for no reason. No reason at all. No one has abused me, I have not smoked pot, I have no disorders. Nothing at all.
-I feel that my life is like a dream for the past 4 days.
-I cannot ignore it.It is very difficult for me.Whatever I do, I feel that I do it just to stop feeling like that.
Questions
1.What the hell do I have? =|
2.Do I have some very serious disorder such as depression?
3.Will I feel like that for entire months or years?
4.Am I going crazy?
5.Will I ever be able to be fine again soon, or I will have to be like that for many months or years?
6.If I recover from it, will it ever get back?
7.Can this feeling be very dangerous?
8.Can it lead me to being sufferer of mental disorders?
9.Will I spend my whole life with this?
10.Why did it happen in such days that I was very happy at?
11.Will I have to face it by going to therapists and taking medicine?
12.Why everything I do to stop thinking of it makes me again feel I do it just for it to go away?
Thanks for being patient to read this, I appreciate every advice.
I just want to be fine, soon.
:scared15: